If I were anyone else...

If I were anyone else besides my overly unemotional, bitter self I probably would have cried.

Take one postpartum woman who has not stepped out of her front door for five days and is unable to make decisions, or at least fast ones. Add a 3 week old baby.

Now load them in to the car to go on one of their first outings by themselves in to the world (not counting the pediatrician's office).

I have finally decided on the perfect place to eat where I can take my baby and still be outside and not deal with a lot of people.

We arrive at the bagel place, get unloaded from the car, baby in car seat and stroller, get to the front door just to see the owner turn the "open" sign off in front of me while noticing they have changed their hours for the summer. We were late by 4 minutes.

Mace didn't mind since he was asleep the whole time but I was pretty pissed.

If regular pregnancy or postpartum hormones actually affected me like a normal person I would have cried. Instead I went to Arby's.

Side note: I think it's kind of weird that pregnancy and postpartum hormones really didn't/haven't affected me. I never had any mood swings (I was my normal self, whether good or bad), I have not had fits of unexplained crying, and things aren't really phasing me postpartum. Maybe there is something to this bitter, cold-hearted thing after all. It makes it much easier to cope with annoying hormones.